So sad CheryGray. Hugs

they are hard for me because we would take turns with large dinners within out "social circle" for the lack of a better term. One of the ladies in that group suffers like I do so she would contribute to the dinner because she couldnt do one herself. but this year none of us had any. we havent talked to one couple for about 2yrs now. just stopped coming and calling. one couple lives a good 45min and one couple she hurts just like i do. So i guess you can say we have lost our friends. thats why we are giving up the house to the youngest daughter and moving to our camper. we will still have our room but kris gets the rest. cant wait til its final. sorry i went a little off topic

I dont like the crowds and I dont do well with a lot of people. Im just not a people person. I get over whelmed and frustrated really easy. I dont get along with my family and most of the time we have a strained relationship they have a hard time understanding exactly what is wrong with me and they make rude and nasty comments to me. The heat really gets to me. I deal with the cold.

Yes Holiday's are hard..I get nervous the day before..and also with any appointments..I am always glad they are over..I tense up..and it makes me hurt..from being nervous..

Holidays are always difficult for me. I get so tired trying to prepare for them. It would be easier if there were fewer things that must be attended but I come from a large family and there are events that must be attended so I get overtired. I also have a hard time being in a large crowd for any length of time. The noise feels like I'm being beat up and it is hard to have conversations because the pain becomes to overwhelming. I am fortunate in that my family knows that I have problems with this and are not offended when I leave after only a few hours. When I'm having my family in my house, my children and their families help with all the work so I can sit and just enjoy having everyone over. I am always really tired by the time everyone leaves but am grateful that I get to see my family. I no longer help with setting up and taking down the parties because I am just not able to do it anymore.