Hi, once early in my illness when I was also severely depressed, I did harm myself. -- with a razor, I would cut myself and I became dis-associated from my body. But I would also end up being put on a psych ward every time I did this. I was going through this all alone and my world had fallen.completely apart. I had lost everything that defined me. My life was a nightmare. I lost my friends, my career, and the support of my family.

What does one do when.faced with all.this? I wasn't handling it well. I kept falling apart. Migraines would rip my head in agony in those days. I was confused by my symptoms. This was the middle 90's and there just wasn't anything for us to take.

I just poked along. I went in therapy for 9 years and eventually Lyrica came out, which did help me some..My doctor put me on a low dose of opioids and that helped better. Oh, it was a long journey out of the darkness. I.had become hopeless.

What finally did it for me was finding purpose and meaning in life. You have to find that for yourself. It has to be personal.to you.
And you need to.learn to.have a new relationship with your pain. You just have to. Or that pain will be a misery always. You need to learn.to dis-associate your mind from your body, not by harming yourself, but by learning mindfulness, and distraction. These are the very basics. Their are online courses, YouTube, or books to.read (Thict Naht Hahn) he's one of the founders of this method.
It takes practice and persistence, but you haven't got anything to lose. These are the facts.

Yes I too have went thru a stage like that where the pain is so nagging that you just want to hit the area to feel a different pain ...I just wish we all could get over this illness and live a normal life

Yes! It’s very difficult to fight that demon. Some days it’s impossible. @A MyFibroTeam Member is right! If this is persistent seek a therapist. Something I’ve wanted to try is biofeedback. Ins won’t cover it but I’ve read great things about it. I personally don’t have the money right now to do it. Try doing some mindfulness exercises. You can find some online. We get a triple whammy with this. It affects our physical, mental and spiritual health. We need to take care of all 3 and it’s overwhelming. Sending you love and marshmallow hugs.
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Feel the same especially when my pain is at is worse, and i dont want to talk to anyone or be around anyone.
At present im crying with pain and you just cant think positively other than pain

I hate feeling like a zombie . Got no va va voom. It gets you down as does the pain on each and every movement